Wow. I don't think I like xanga anymore..I haven't updated in more than a month. Anyways, here's a little 2005 recap for ya..it's the same that I have posted in my myspace blog.

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2005 is one of those years where you could really care less that it's going away.

2005 started with me at home with my family watching them drink and talk shit. Then again that's what happens every year on New Years Eve. haha.

There were definantly upsides to this year...Metting Kelly Clarkson on 4/5, and seeing her in concert twice with my favorite person in the world...those were definantly some fun nights..minus the cousin part. Green Bay OWNED and everything about that weekend rocked. I met Stacy on 8/6, and that pretty much rocked that whole month...Early March rocked with the Matchmaker performances, I was so proud of the product that we had in the end...Prom night in April at Battle of the Bands was fun..dispite all the messed up people that were there. haha...but things pretty much fell down hill from there. The beginning and some parts in the end were definantly the best moments of the year.

I think the biggest obstacle I faced in 2005 was letting people/things go...in more ways than one. I watched someone graduate and that was definantly the hardest thing for me..March-June was probably the worst time of the year just because I was so down for that reason & other issues. I'm not looking forward to having those same feelings this year at graduation, but I know it's inevitable. And then recently I noticed I was headed down that same track again...not being able to let things go, and I didn't want that. I didn't want 2006 to start out in a way that I knew would make it bad. So I got the support from the person I needed, and I let it go. It hurt, but I'll live with knowing that I didn't let go until it was way past expiration.

I've learned that my sister is a whore, people aren't really who you expect them to be until you get to know them, people can be mean and not even care, and you can't care what people think of you.

Many other little things this year made it okay. Summer rocked...Georgia. And thanks to everyone who was able to share any of these great moments with me. I love you all! <3

HERE'S TO 2006!!!!!

It's weird to think about how different your life would be if you never met the people who changed it.

Hey everyone!

I've been going non stop basically for the past 2 weeks. I hate it. It's so annoying. School is controling my life once again. I'm so glad that we have a 5 day break now for Thanksgiving. WOOT.

Last night at like 9 I went to a movie, Prime, with my friends David and Melissa. We were the only 3 in the theater so we were being obnoxious. haha. The movie actually wasn't too bad...what I saw of it wasn't bad. lol. The story line was funny. I recommend seeing it, but not in theaters. It's not worth the 8.25. Okay, so we walk in there and I'm like YAY evening rate!! And David looked at me and was like, "Heather, it's only $0.25 less than the day rate." What a rip off. lol.  

Then we kinda got lost coming home. lol. David missed the turn to take the beltline, so we decided to head downtown Madison. lol. We didn't get lost for long, because me being the excelent navigator that I am, found our way back. YAY. So we got home about about 11:30. Then Melissa and I were up until like 4:00am.

I hope that everyone has a great Thanksgiving! I am so grateful to know each and everyone of you. Have a great day!

<33333 Heather

So I like to think that I don't ask a whole lot of people, right? Because really, I don't. I just sit back and let people do whatever the hell they want.

But one thing that really effing pisses me off, is if you cancel your plans with me to go do something with someone else.

Just a little advice on what makes Heather tick.

So I went and saw Saw 2 tonight. Didn't like it, but it made me think. This is kind of something that's been bothering me the past few days, and I just needed to write about it. I'm in a weird mood, so if you read this just bare with me.

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What good is it, to realize something, and not share it?

That's what i'm here to do.

Who are you? Are you someone everyone knows? Why? Is it because your part of the lightbulb crew? Or maybe one of those kids you see everywhere you go, and you're recognized because you have that bright pink streak in your hair?

This is game. and we're all here to play it.

                              Saw 2 is an amazing movie.

It's true. Not because of the plot line, it's not because of the twists and turns, or even because the ending is unexpected. No, it's because by the end of it, you relize something. Not just that you're scared, but what your scared of. To me, the torture of the victims in this movie wasn't murder, nope. They were your conscious, what you're scared of, and I'm not talking about death.  I'm talking about who you are, what you do, where, when, what you do to other people. It's how you don't want to end up, not dead, but dead on the inside. Break this down.

ARE YOU WHO YOU WANT YOURSELF TO BE?

Are you happy with what you do and how you do it?

I'm hoping you actually think about those before you naturally skim through the words from here on down.

I look at myself and realize.... 

What have I ever done that's worth anything? In the movie they said that doing something amazing is the way to escape fear, the nature fear of death, because it make you immortal.

Truth be told, how many of us can look the mirror and say, wow i've really accomplished something wonderful?

Not very many.
Myself included.

Realizing that I've done nothing, that I've thrown away something i could have used to help someone else makes me want to break down and cry. 

What you do need, is to think. Think about what youre doing, what youre saying, what you can do to make yourself feel wonderful. So wonderful others feel wonderful as well. Something benificial.

You also need to strive for what you want. cookies and milk aren't free you know.

If we are all trying to be so individual, DO something that makes you an individual, don't try to act like one. That's game. And your chances of winning that game, slim to none.

Watch out, the only one that survives is the immortal. And in the movies, that's the murderer.

I love you all.

Currently Reading The Notebook By Nicholas Sparks see related

Hey all! Hope everyone is having a super weekend!

So last night was a lot of fun. It was our regional volleyball game, and I went to the game with a friend. It was also pink night, so everyone was in pink. It was so great. We ended up winning all 3 games. So now we advance to another regional game, which is being played tonight in Poynette (about an hour from me) as we speak, before sectionals. Hopefully we go to state again this year. Anways, some pics from last night:

I love our seniors. They rock. Everytime we would win a game, they would do 25 push ups signifying the 25-x win. WOOT. And don't tell me that the energizer bunny isn't even funny. lol

Then after the game my friend came over and stayed over night. So we were up all night, which explains why I am dead tired already tonight.

Then today I went into Madison with my mom to buy my nieces Halloween costumes. That was fun, except it was crazy with all the little kids buying Halloween costumes. Never doing that again. lol.

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I got sick like Monday night so this week wasn't very fun at all, but I'm pretty much healthy now, so I'm trying to catch up on everything I missed this week. Wayyy too much!

I've been learning lines like crazy lately, because we have a performance on November 4 and 5, and we are not ready. We were given way too little time to learn the amount of lines we were given, but whatever man. So I've been working my butt off trying to learn these.

So I was planning on updating a lot, but I just don't have the energy to right now, lol. So have a good night/weekend everyone!

Heath